Thursday, April 3, 2008

Day 64

Well a lot has been happening...

Looks like I'm going to be moving back to MD in the nearish future. I met a nice guy out here, but I don't think it's going to carry on much more; just too comfortable too quick. I guess I need to be wined and dined.

Been talking to a guy out in DE, he seems nice.

As far as the 101 goes.... *sigh*. At least with moving I'll get some of the organization things out of the way!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Day 42

Today, the 12th, is my year anniversary of moving out. Time flies, I guess. I'm really proud of myself for making changes over the last year. I don't know that I'm better off financially, but emotionally, mentally, physically? Absolutely.
XH stopped by earlier in the week to drop off some papers and stuff I had at his dad's house (his father is getting married, today, I think). He said he was buying a house, then started telling me about it, but I had to stop him. I was so upset... I begged him for years to get his shit together, fix what needed to be fixed, so we could sell and move. I guess I had it in my head that if we got away from where we were, we'd be able to fix things. He said "are you mad at me?" WTF!!!!!!!!! I am so mad at him for so many things I don't even think I can begin to verbalize it. I didn't bother asking if that slutbag he's living with now is moving in with him. I just don't understand what I did to karma that made her deal me such a shitty hand.... after all I put into trying to fix that marriage, *I* ended up being screwed over, and now HE'S living the bachelor life, buying a family friendly house and settling down??? I guess it was me. But I did the damn best I could. Screw him, he's missing out. I hope he's sorry. If he isn't, he will be.
I called MOMD and he's on his way over. I don't know if it's because i miss him, want him, love him, or because I want to get back at my ex. Hopefully more of the former than the latter.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Day 39 ... I think

Tomorrow I'll be attempting to break 130 while bowling; another date *happy dance*.
I told MOMD that it was really hard on me not seeing him... got the "I miss you but I want to spend time with DD when I'm not working" thing. I don't blame him, of course, but part of me wants to say Well if you want a relationship you have to make time for me, and 5 hours every other week isn't working for me.


Saturday, March 1, 2008

Day 30

I'm in a conundrum. MOMD called and visited again. I did finally get up the nerve to tell him that I wasn't just a booty call, and I think I hurt his feelings a little bit. I'm glad... not that I hurt his feelings, but that he obviously doesn't think of me that way.
On the list.... My classes started, so that's working towards finishing my degree. Once I get the official "go" from my advisors, I can make "write dissertation" an in-progress item.

So in 30 days, I've accomplished one thing... that means I need to step it up!!!

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Day 24

Had a fantastic date tonight; went to a hockey game, that that means #66 is COMPLETE!!! Guy is *really* nice. Super nice. No awkward silences... there were silences, but I didn't think they were awkward. We came back here after the game and talked for over 3 hours. Then I got some smooches before he left. (=

1 down, 100 to go!!!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Day 20

My wonderful mother sent me the book Making Faces by Kevyn Auncion. It's GREAT! There's even a part specificaly designated to the smokey eye look!!!
I have a date on Sunday, to an IceHogs game; number 66 is going to be my first one finished I think!!!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Day 19

I'm just making this entry so I don't lapse on my "make weekly entries".

Been pretty down since the NIU shootings. I'm glad I wasn't involved more than I had to be.... all those poor families. I just don't have anything profound or insightful to day about it... I just hope it stops happening.