Today, the 12th, is my year anniversary of moving out. Time flies, I guess. I'm really proud of myself for making changes over the last year. I don't know that I'm better off financially, but emotionally, mentally, physically? Absolutely.
XH stopped by earlier in the week to drop off some papers and stuff I had at his dad's house (his father is getting married, today, I think). He said he was buying a house, then started telling me about it, but I had to stop him. I was so upset... I begged him for years to get his shit together, fix what needed to be fixed, so we could sell and move. I guess I had it in my head that if we got away from where we were, we'd be able to fix things. He said "are you mad at me?" WTF!!!!!!!!! I am so mad at him for so many things I don't even think I can begin to verbalize it. I didn't bother asking if that slutbag he's living with now is moving in with him. I just don't understand what I did to karma that made her deal me such a shitty hand.... after all I put into trying to fix that marriage, *I* ended up being screwed over, and now HE'S living the bachelor life, buying a family friendly house and settling down??? I guess it was me. But I did the damn best I could. Screw him, he's missing out. I hope he's sorry. If he isn't, he will be.
I called MOMD and he's on his way over. I don't know if it's because i miss him, want him, love him, or because I want to get back at my ex. Hopefully more of the former than the latter.